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Heart Rate Variability and exercise

A student in my seminar did a presentation on Heart Rate Variability with regard to exercise. 

He concluded that exercise does not improve Heart Rate Variability but that Heart Rate Variability improves performance. 

People with greater HRV benefit from enhanced training adaptations that include variability of intensity from day to day. 

Adjusting training according to heart rate variability measured at rest every morning may lead to more efficient athletic training. 

“Their benefits include: higher maximal oxygen consumption (VO₂max), force production and anaerobic power.  Since higher HRV is associated with greater improvements in performance, and HRV is constantly fluctuating in a person, HRV has been used to form a new system for daily undulating periodization programs (DUP). ”

This realization allows me to narrow down places to reside in in the future.

I need it to be summer again. Where is the warm air I escaped NYC for?! 

Just breathe.

I need some words of encouragement right now because I’m about to lose it.

I have had to deal with so much BS this morning in sending in paperwork and details upon details about my undergraduate degree all to apply for my Dietetic Internship. So far, in fees, I have had to pay $165 to apply for an internship I am not gauranteed to receieve EVEN THOUGH I am already a current student in the graduate program that goes alongside it.

$40 per program I apply to- to use the online application

$50 to  a website that tells me if I get the internship or not

$50 to renew my student ADA membership

$25 to get transcrips sent from my undergrad schools

…this does not include all of the tuition and fees payments to the university’s graduate school program (which added up to about $5200)….

I took a year off of school after getting my BS in Dietetics so I could regather my thoughts and figure out what I wanted to do with  my life. I figured I’d go to grad school and get the RD I originally worked for in getting my Dietetics bachelor’s and specialize in Sports Nutrition because that is more along the lines of what I am interested in. But really, fuck interests. It’s all about what I can make money from now. Why????!!!! Because now I have to find something that will help me pay the thousands of dollars in loans I will have to take out to even get a decent job in the 1st place. My current degree path is in something I am passionate and interested in but there are almost no jobs out there and the ones that do exist are in a salary range that I could barely get by on (not including paying back loans).

So here I am…in this grad program…paying fees out the ass to the university AND the online applications to get accepted into the internship…and WHO KNOWS if I will even get it.

I’m not the quitting type but after all of this BS, I just want to throw in the towel. I want to throw a brick through the window of the financial aid office, the registrars office, the cashier’s office, whoeever else keeps charging me all of these ridiculous fees for services I don’t even fcking use and have two middle fingers painted on it saying “fuck it.”

I’d rather take out $30,000 in loans and get a new undergraduate degree that gaurantees me some kind of income in the future. THIS. My current status- it isn’t going to do it.

I’ll let you know in April.